Yes I’m back and I’m gonna be downright selfish. You people in the know must by now realise I love my music. So trust that I will always select an inspirational tune that fits somewhere in with my opinion, my memories or a current affairs topic that piques my interest.
The cut I have selected as this month’s Inspirational Song is there simply on merit I suppose. Taken from the eponymous 2000 album that bore many wonderful tracks. This was always my favourite. It was the beginning of the beginning of the end for me.
This track saw what was the last throw of the all out “bad boy” image I had cultivated. It actually inspired me to look closely at where I was going and more pointedly with whom.
I’m not saying that this song alone gave me that “light bulb” moment but it was certainly in and around at the time. It sticks in the mind because I played it (publicly and privately) over and over again; and so after a time concentrated a lot on the lyrical content.
Realising that you’ve been blinded to the fact that someone you’ve been close to for some time, is actually the one you should be with is one thing. But knowing that fact then shunning them is twice as stupid. This track gave me that “Eureka” moment. That “What F**% are you thinking boy” wake up call. It basically said get your head out of your egotistical backside and go get what’s gone and good before it’s gone for good. As someone once said “You never know what you’ve got ‘til it’s gone”
Sometimes I think we (blokes especially) get caught up in the living for the moment and being the dude thing so much that it clouds our judgement and blurs lines between what’s good and what’s ACTUALLY GOOD FOR YOU. Sometimes we should all just take a step back and think; where is this heading/Where will it take me? Am I being sincere to myself and to others? Yes there are a whole lotta questions in all of that and I aprpeciate that some of us are not ready or possibly unready to broach them. I might go as far as to say some chaps may NEVER be in a state of mind to even think about their emotional selves and relationships in this way.
It takes guts to approach someone and say that you think that you’ve read signs coming from them and that you interpret them as feelings for you because you dont want to appear smug and you don’t want to laughed at. In truth though you already know how he/she feels because you’ve felt it for years and ignored it in order to move around as it were; it’s just the knowledge that you’ve left it so long to act positively that that person may have compartmentalised those feelings for you and have decided not to waste any more energy waiting and wanting and simply moved on. DUDE or DUDETTE – You should’ve known better!!
On an upbeat thought though. That person described above may well have also waited for you to come to your senses (Patiently waiting in the wings so to speak) and welcome your Eureka moment with open arms. Yes you’ve been friends for some time but really you’ve both been more for that same period. It’s just that one had to wait for the other to change course and lifestyle in order to clearly define their life and the pattern it takes.
So this is not about taking the chance that someone might be more than a friend and knowing that “from now ‘til the end of time, you’ll always be a friend of mine”
It’s more about them staying in your heart even when you’ve pushed (metaphorically) them and their feelings away because you chose not to deal with it as you were steering a more open and cosmopolitan course at that time.
Anyway, I have given a small hint to what the track is in the last paragraph and I need to come back to first person. So as I was saying this track helped move me to another place and I’m still in that happy place right now and blessed to be so it’s funny how music can be so inspiring that it can change the course of your life……..and mine.
W| By Ian Birthwright @Brooklynflyer